krish – 起死回生 [Wake up from death & return to life.]

November 5, 2014

Giving up Everything to move forward in Life!

Would you call me crazy if I said I don’t need a house, don’t need the TV, the car, the sofa, the dining table, the Fridge, utensils, cooler, suits, and a ton of stuff that we all keep inside 4 walls and rate our success in life with how much more we can stuff within those walls?

Would you call me mad, a lunatic, if I said life can be lived on a single backpack?

It’s 3:00 am, I’m awake despite being sick and short of breath due to Asthma.
Meditated for a bit, feels better now.

Dark room, silent surroundings with everyone asleep, good for thought process.
Two months, I’ve backpacked Malaysia and Singapore for 2 reasons.

  1. To find investors for my start-up and
  2. To assess if I can survive with one backpack.
A backpack with life's essentials is all I seem to need.

A backpack with life’s essentials is all I seem to need. Pudu Raya Bus Terminal, Malaysia .. waiting for bus to Singapore.

As I reflect on my thoughts and feelings I went through while backpacking,  I do not seem to need my urban luxuries of life to make anything better of it.

My car, the TV, and the seemingly un-ending list of items stuffed in the apartment, I can survive without it.
With the goals I have set for my life, none of this matters.

All I need is a laptop, and few clothes.
Should an Indie game developer need more than that?

Working on my upcoming game while backpacking. One laptop, a drawing tablet and access to Internet - thanks to a host who gave me shelter.

Working on my upcoming game. One laptop, a drawing tablet and access to Internet – thanks to a host who gave me shelter.

I always knew my life isn’t going to be about settling down at a place.
I’ll never fit in a society, a structure or an organisation, or the very nature of people to own more materialistic things of life to climb that social ladder, the society with it’s rules that I can’t find a logic too.
Quit my job 4 years ago to do what I love.
Toured quite a few places in India on my motorbike, but something is still holding me back.

Yes! the Possessions I have. Possession of things in life that needs you to stuff them inside 4 walls and call it home, are holding me back.
I need to let go to experience new things this world has to offer.
I need to make more friends, I need to meet more good people with positive vibes around the globe, see the world and immerse myself in the nature/beauty/history/stories that Earth has to offer.

This is it. I have to do this.
There is no reason to wait any longer.

I need to travel without boundaries,
I NEED to be FREE!

So, here’s a list of stuff that I’m giving up from my current life. (Click to go to the link)
A lot of “Free GiveAways to Friends” yay!, and a few things on sale. 🙂
If you’d like to see videos of my travels, you can subscribe to me on Youtube – click here.

Pantai Tengah beach, Langkawi, Malaysia. Nice place to sit and think of game ideas.

Pantai Tengah beach, Langkawi, Malaysia.
Nice place to sit and think of game ideas.

November 27, 2013

My new companion

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Last 3 months, no proper diet .. eating all crap again… no running/sprinting either; pressed for time working on my first game release (http://facebook.com/HungryBaka) and with over little more than 3-4 hrs max sleep everyday has taken a super toll on my health.

Asthma is back in life!
4 days back I was completely down, unable to move.. hands trembled, unable to breath either (as if breathing last breaths .. this happened 2 yrs ago once).

Depending on inhaler...not good.

Depending on inhaler…not good.

Life went from using pills to puffing on Asthaline in 4 days.
Living alone makes it worse, that lonely feeling, that emptiness and staring at blank walls, and no one to talk to…. but I guess this is still is better than living with anyone who back-stabs you.

It is immensely painful both emotionally and physically, but if this is what it takes to ride the path I chose in life.. then so be it.
Bring it on; It’s a Do or Die bitch.

August 24, 2013

The Undrawn Emotions

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Today, or infact right this moment I sank into a deep feeling of doodling/drawing up a certain figure.
A portrait to be precise, of a girl, holding a big blue-white dolphin plush toy, head tilted 30 deg to right and smiling.

Then an inner voice creeps from behind and asks me “Why”?
And in a flash runs me scenes of pain from past. Also runs me all possibilities/combinations of what could be happening far far away; without me, and with others.

I smash the pencil to the wall and tear up the paper.

He is right.

On a sidenote, I should be really thankful for the personality split.. took me sometime to realize that it happened.. I tried to deny it first…but giving in is more peaceful.
It helps so much.. and so much so that it avoids me from going crazy to end it all.

The image remains an “Undrawn Emotion”.

July 31, 2013

Preview – My ~3700 kms Solo biking across 3 States of India

Here’s a small video I managed to put together from my GoPro feeds 🙂 .. a preview of my solo biking adventure earlier this month…. more to come when I find time to render them 😀

For now, here it is 😉

Yes, people called me crazy.
People stopped me and there were crazy jungles through which I biked alone… there is no road there.. only dangerous terrain… quite some close call ‘would have been’ fatal accidents escaped, managed to almost drop the bike in waters of Bay of Bengal,  dipped feet in World’s second largest lagoon and not in a tourist spot.. but one that hasnt been trekked by more than a handful people on Earth… all this and MORE coming in next video sets 🙂

July 21, 2013

Walter’s Visit to India!

Continued from here – https://srikrishnadas.wordpress.com/2013/07/16/1300-kms-bike-ride-solo-hyderabad-bangalore-hyderabad/

Meeting Walter after almost an year was pretty awesome fun!

When not in meeting rooms,
– we explored Bangalore,
– walked long stretches on streets,
– hogged on local food (and so busy at it, that I forgot to take pics),
– hung out at Toit Brew Pub,
– almost got conned by Auto-walas due to Walter’s white skin 🙂 … suddenly 2.5kms of auto was 150 bucks.
– met old friends for dinners (again, pics missing darn it )

I personally was busy munching these super tasty waffles (Stroopwafels) that Walter brought me from Holland (there’s more where that came from…. read the whole log) 😉

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He then flew to Hyderabad for continued fun! (thanks to him for carrying my old lid with him, I got to test my new touring lid at high speeds  :D)

Essentially we had 2 goals – (A). Find the spiciest local food  and  (B). Hog on it
So here we go…

Walter vs 70mm Dosa Guess who won? :)

Walter vs 70mm Dosa
Guess who won? 🙂

Insert an awesome pic of a white guy and an Indian guy hogging on big plates of spicy biryani, mutton roasts, Lassi, Faluda and tons of yummy stuff here... can't find the pics :_(

North Indian Cuisine - extra spiced up!

North Indian Cuisine – extra spiced up!

Decided to hit my sunset watching spot… we had a bag of 150 odd Lychee’s (my favorite fruit) and drinks to go!

My fav sunset watching and munching spot in City.

My fav sunset watching and munching spot in City.

One noon we found this pigeon in parking spot, was sitting and crapping on someone’s bike… I wondered why it wouldn’t fly even though I got pretty close to it AND the facts that cats move around here… inspected, found it injured.

Unable to Fly :(

Unable to Fly 😦

We decided to do the rescue ops, and Walter tried to put it back in its nest (as its partner looked by) …. with all his 6’3” mighty vertical length 🙂 .. didnt work.

Not sure if rescue ops or tap dance? -_-

Not sure if rescue ops or tap dance? -_-

He vertically supported the ladder (because it was bit short to rest on the ceiling walls) and the short guy (that’d be me) went up it to put the pigeon back. Team work 🙂
Meanwhile, my watchman whom I asked to hold my camera.. decided to film it (un-needed marketing team member) .. so here’s screenshots from the video (not posting the video :D)

Alright, another 3 feet to climb.. I can do this. Sweat Sweat :) Pigeon in hand:  WTF is happening. The other Pigeon in nest: crazy people!

Alright, another 3 feet to climb.. I can do this.
Sweat Sweat 🙂
Pigeon in hand: WTF is happening.
The other Pigeon in nest: crazy people!

Anyway, we managed to put it back safe (and I managed not to eat it.. so thats good I guess)

Rescue ops success :)

Rescue ops success 🙂

I wish Walter could stay longer, but he missed his wife ‘Mine’ who couldn’t make it to this trip. I guess that’s what happens when you find a soul-mate who he describes as ‘Awesome Woman’.

Just kidding ;)  I am very happy for him :D

Just kidding 😉
I am very happy for him 😀

Anyway, after he left I spent 3 days trying to drill and cut the big dark-chocolate bar he brought for me(another gift from Holland!).
It was bigger than my meat cutting knife, almost my elbow length…

Dark-Chocolate Massacre Saga!

Dark-Chocolate Massacre Saga!

And then another 30 days eating it in various different ways (my fav way is to melt it at room temp and eat with fingers and smudging the face.. probably how dark-chocolates should be eaten in the first place :P)
… and getting fat 😀

with Cashews? .. my fav dry fruit

with Cashews? .. my fav dry fruit..nut

Bottom line, Absolutely happy to see/hangout with my friend and the fact that he finally came to India (should have brought his wife along for extended stay).

What makes me happy is that he was and still is “Awesome” in many ways!
Before he left we made a note to each other (NO, it was not a pinky promise.. we’re grown men!) that he’s gonna continue being the good person he is, and that’d help me take a reference.. so we would remain best buddies forever 🙂

His way of life reminds me the way my dad was, and that I always wanted to derive from that.. AND that I went downhill instead.

Indirectly, I owe him for re-providing me a good reference for the ‘way to live’ and that it helped me take a very tough/difficult, hurting decision in my life (~ 1 year ago).
Hurting as hell, still does.. but the RIGHT thing needed to be done; is DONE.

Walter, you Rock!

January 9, 2013

How to know if she is your soul mate?

Soul mate doesn't take off when you're down.

Soul mate doesn’t take off when you’re down.

Haha 🙂 Funny, but sometimes that is what you need.
A soul mate that sticks around to give you emotional support when you’re almost dying; the one who comes back to you leaving the world on hearing about a mishap that would have happened to you.

Alas! Some people just take the opportunity to take off (same day or the next day or two days later… same thing.. you haven’t recovered yet), even if you’ve been there for them at a similar situation(or lets call that “every” situation) they were in.

It is a learning that life gives, letting you measure the depths of love and a lesson for you to never make that mistake of trusting again.

December 30, 2012

Cute Couple Vloggers

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Couples from vlogging scene on Youtube,  Bart Kwan and Geovanna Antoinette opened up their relation to their youtube viewers on a vlog .. and it was pretty interesting to watch.

Felt connected with this video from timeline 8:21
Brought tear to my eye.
I tried to see those qualities in someone for 10 yrs before finally realizing that if it ain’t there I won’t find it.. no matter how hard I look or try.

And this continuation video made me go “Wow” for both of them.
Watch what they feel about “tying the knot”,
when he says “I can trust my life in hands of Geo”,
about “girly girls” :),
when he says that she is someone who can get “Even for me” or “protect me” when shit happens,
and bit of light moments (but truths) with “height issues” 😀

Hugs to ya both. Wish ya the best!
Don’t let anybody/anything get in between your relation. 🙂
I’m sure they won’t.. both of them have brains 😀

December 24, 2012

Pinning my hikes/travels on Everplaces now…

It was getting rather clumsy to maintain a list of places I’ve been to, list of places I want to be at and other stuff on Google presentation.

Moving them to Everplaces.com slowly (as and when I find time)
The site is slow but I like the interface.
Added 6 places as of now, visited 2 of them already. 🙂

Here’s my profile – https://everplaces.com/heartbrokenbiker/

Updating my places of hiking/travelling/biking

Updating my places of hiking/travelling/biking

Stay tuned.. I’m gonna go places. 😉

December 18, 2012

Riding bike with your girlfriend/wife pillion?

Sick and bed ridden, I was just browsing through facebook and youtube and I came across this really good video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8f_MOue5rPw
He talks about the dos and dont’s when you have a pillion (he has his girlfriend as pillion in that video) … and it reminded me of my bike rides with my ex.

I never crossed 40mph in city riding when my ex was pillion… and she sometimes complained why I don’t drive like when I do a solo ride(over 100mph or even fast enough).
She probably never understood that I just couldn’t risk her life like I did with mine driving solo on a bike.
If there were to be a crash, I’d prefer that she walks away safe and if there needs to be a death then let that be mine.

 

So here are some tips for those “boyfriends” or “husbands” who love their (respective) “girlfriends” or “wifes”:

1. Buy proper riding gear for both .. dont buy awesome helmet for yourself and stupid roadside one for your wife.
Helmets are Very Very Important.
Infact, if i remember right, both our helmets (ex and me) were half faced.
I’d prefer full face protection for her, but she complained of suffocation when we went to choose helmet and she tried a full face one.
Her helmet had an inbuilt tinted goggles and a double top up full face visor and costed 1.5x more than mine,was IS-4151 approved. Infact, my first one was a fake ISO approved (there is no ISO standard for helmets) and I made sure that I didn’t do the same mistake when we picked one for her.

So if you love your girl, get her equal(considering your’s is not crappy) or better stuff.

If you have the buck, consider getting more than just helmets.. buy riding jackets, riding shoes, gloves, spine protectors, knee guards …….. and yes very importantly, not just for yourself.. but for your girl too.

 

2. What if you don’t have two helmets? Then give the one you have to your girl.. even if she is pillion
Happened to me when I sold my bike and gave away my helmet and then she got a scooter .. which if we both went out I’d drive. I always preferred she wear the helmet, but she would complain of stuff like hair, headache and have me wear it. So there are times I managed to get her to wear it, and times I couldn’t.
And only I know the nervousness I had driving the times when the helmet was on my head and not hers. (Even though I’m an experienced rider, I used to pray that I see her back home safe)

 

3. Proper/Good quality shoes
Very important. The first thing that a rider hits when falling off a sliding vehicle on accident is foot fingers.
Your fingers can scrape and you can end up loosing foot fingers, broken ankle, damaged Achilles heel and what not.

When my ex was just learning her scooter, I took her to shoe store and forced her to pick out a proper shoe.
It was white/blue girl style, proper protection, ample ankle, shin and heel padding.
She used it once or twice max and then they lay in the shoe rack forever eating dust.

Moral of the story for me: You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink

But seriously, try to talk to your girl and make her understand that why that 2 mins of time of wearing a shoe is better than walking handicapped for rest of the life.

 

4. Know your speed limit

You may ride at 100mph doing solo on the bike, but if you have your girl behind.. please be responsible.
The flick-ability of a motorcycle gets worse when you have a pillion on it.
If she is asking for more speed, you should only know that she hasn’t experienced a crash before… and you should be wise to know that you don’t want her to experience that pain (if you love her that is 😉 )

Don’t try to show your manhood by zipping fast/rash (its more like you dont have manhood since you’re having to prove it by zipping fast)

And if you think your girl thinks less manly of you since you dont speed, then let her just leave.
Trust me, if you love her.. its better to see her safe than be handicapped.. even if it means she leaves you. It’ll only mean she had a peanut size brain and it can’t be helped. But you can ensure her safety.

 

5. If you have a sports bike, then show her proper riding position
Riding position on sports bike is way different from normal commuter bikes.
If both you and your pillion do not know the positions, then you could easily crash.
Here this video shows how

6. Safety for her before she gets on to the bike
Make sure you have both your feet firmly on the ground and both your hands on handlebars when she is mounting the bike. Don’t showoff/try to be a hero by holding no handlebars…even if you are fucking tall.. if the bike tips due to irregular tarmac/mud on the road…. her head will be the first to hit the ground. You on the other hand will be the safest since your legs will grip the tank due to body reflex.

 

7. Safety for her before YOU get off the bike
So you did a great job while she was getting on the bike, but managed to kick her when you got off the bike… isn’t really a happy scene.
Make sure she steps safely far away after getting off the bike before you swing your leg, ensuring that you don’t end up kicking her face/body.

 

8. Take care of her dress
Make sure you check that her dress isn’t getting stuck in the wheel. (So common with Indian dresses having chunnis/sarees/dupattas)
It could get stuck in the wheel and tighten on her throat, hence suffocate her and the force of pull could throw her off the bike too.
They may/maynot have the brains to think of all this.. but you should.

 

9. Protect her against cold wind, dust and pollution
A helmet again plays a role here blocking most of the pollution, but other than that you should block her from oncoming dust wind.
If you see a dust road ahead, ask her to shut her eyes/hide behind your back.

If it’s a cold wind/weather, make sure she has a warm jacket even if it means you have to take off yours and give it to her. Just give it.. no second thoughts on this one.

 

10. Keep her back-ache in mind
Back aches are pretty common for sport bikers, and more so for female pillion because of strenuousness in riding position and their other biological issues.
So slow down once in a while on straight road, let her sit straight up and relax her back.
It is very painful to see your girl go through backpain, so only imaging how painful it is to her who is bearing it.

 

11. Communicate
Every once in a while, especially during long rides.. be caring and ask her if she is comfortable, if she needs to take a break, if she needs you to drive slower, if she needs to attend a nature call and so on.
She might just be enduring some discomfort and still not saying anything.
Girls seem to feel that they are doing a sacrifice by enduring something that way, No its not.
Real men shouldn’t be needing her to do those. It is far better to ask her to point out immediately if something is a discomfort rather than endure it.

Overall pay attention to minor things(that can turn major threat) for your girlfriend/wife.

 

12. Try to take this attitude in normal life too… not just while biking.
Be considerate.. put her before yourself.
She may not do the same, she may treat you as least important and rate you in chart of importance after all her blood relations, friends or whatever….but then that only means she doesn’t love you as much as you love her.
But still, “as long as it lasts”… put her before yourself.
Don’t just “say it”, empty words don’t make sense.. “do it”.

December 17, 2012

The Heart Broken Biker – Vlog 008 – Donate your Bike’s CC? … What?

At one of the biker meets (xBhp group) … meet titled “Donate your bike’s cc”

Let’s go figure out what it means 🙂

Credits:
Music – “As the crow flies” by The-Vow

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